but don't you go and change for me

Change if you want, but don't you go and change for me
I can love you as you are
I didn't mean to make you want to leave

It's a fight between my heart and mind,
No one really wins this time
No one really wins this time

Monday

Everyday feels like a Monday, there is no escaping from the heartache

Live a lie, live a lie, live a lie

I see your dirty face
High behind your collar
What is done in vain
Truth is hard to swallow

Because when I arive
I bring the fire
Make you come alive
I can take you higher

I love let it rock. It's like the first techno rappy song i've ever really liked that much. And i'm sorry if the next time you come here and hear that song. Because i think i'm going to be just about that crazy to put it on auto play here. Haha, life is Fing zzzzzzzz now. I'm exhausted to the max.

On a lighter note, my room's getting repainted :D Haha and you obviously know what colour it's gonna be painted. Just slightly darker cuz i've got this thing for dark/neon pink now.

Anyway, there's just 3 more days till school ends this week, 8 weeks 3 days till the term ends, and idk how many months/weeks/days till the whole school year ends but all i know is that, I CAN'T BLOODY WAIT FOR SCHOOL TO JUST BE OVER. I hate school. Period. Period that period.

Because when i arrive, i, i bring the fire let you come, alive, i can take you higherrrrrr

I'm all choked up that you're okay

What am I suppose to do when
the best part of me was always you,
What am I suppose to say when
i'm all choked up that you're okay





Today was horrible as usual. Mondays usually suck. I've got the Monday blues :( I guess tmr will suck even more then. 4 double-periods without break, are you Fing kidding me? And there's like morning run and Pe in the MORNING. Who runs in the morning. 20x200, 4000. 4km. I am so, looking forward to tomorrow.........

Forever and always

It rains when you're here,
It rains when you're gone




Don't like alr right. You don't like me alr right. It's here alr. The end, the end to this whole episode/phase/period/timeslot of melodrama and never-ending convo(s). I don't know how i feel. Yes i am feeling the pinch of withdrawal symptoms and the loss of that charming alacrity of spirit but i feel free(er) and like, hahahaha. Sigh.

I think it's like kissing in some fake rain. Fake yet true, it does get rather confusing after awhile don't you think. I'm just glad it's ending :) I'm glad it's ending. I'm glad it's ending. I'm like trying to convince myself :( Oh shit...

Raining

Now i know why it was so Fing hot just now,
it's raining like nobody's business now.





Fuck you aunty amina

This couldn't be more unexpected

I'd post Sports day pics when i'm free which is like, never, whatever. Life is weighing me down with truckloads of to-do stuff. I've never practiced so much Handbells in my whole entire life. And i've never went for so many pracs consecutively without fail. I'm so proud of myself LOL.

But seriously, the pracs are killing me, hw is taking away ALL my free time and i've got so many things on my mind. I really hope SYF would friggin' be over and i have to stop Fing so much.


Keep me hanging on, so contagiously

This couldn't be more unexpected

Oh no, this couldn't be more unexpected
And I can tell that I've been moving in so slow
Don't let it throw you off too far
Cause I'll be running right behind you



You're the only one,
i would take a shot on.


Oh you're everything I'm wanting
Come to think of it, I'm aching
On account of my transgression..


Will you welcome this confession?

626

Heehee okay something big happened. I had my grade () piano exam today :) And i didn't go to school. So yeah. HAHA. okay i'm just blogging to request for anyone to play hotel 626 with me. I don't want to play it alone ZZZ

Love

hiatus

But i'd probably blog if something big happens. Till then, paperpinkhearts only on weekends :) I hope. Knowing me...

F you

I'm sure everyone gets it when i say F YOU. You're never there and will never be there.
So there.

Heartbreak

I knew it would happen.
And i knew nothing of how to stop it.
Just a phase, i tell myself, just a phase.
Hurts you know, really does.

F

I think my fav letter of the week is F.
Ask Sarah! I think she's damn used to hearing me F all the way.

My throat was on fire today
and i had to P so many times :( :( :(

Tmr, tmr

I'm getting uglier and sicker by the day urgh.
Back tmr.

Tmr

KK, 3 boxes of that stupid addictive chocolate biscuit, laughter, shopping, fun
<3 you sarah

cya tmr,
tmr tmr,
tmr tmr tmr,
tmr, tmr, tmr, tmr

heeeeheeeeee

Peekchur Purrfact

Heehee FB prob has more pics by Eunice so go see :)
lovelovelovelove, the wind blew our hair :(

You don't

Today was great, had funfunfun!
Relaxing and enjoyable,
Mass upload of peekchur(s) tmr, seriously.


Gonna sleeeeeep,
sleep to forget,
till you forget to sleep.

Shut up, bel

Don't let it throw you off to far

Oh no, this couldn't be more unexpected
And I can tell that I've been moving in so slow
Don't let it throw you off too far
Cause I'll be running right behind you

Could this be out of line? (Could this be out of line?)
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously

Oohhh, when I'm around you I'm predictable
Cause I believe in loving you with first sight
I know it's crazy but I'm hoping to..
To take a hold of you

Could this be out of line? (Could this be out of line?)
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously

Oh you're everything I'm wanting
Come to think of it, I'm aching
On account of my transgression..
Will you welcome this confession?

Could this be out of line? (Could this be out of line?)
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously

Could this be out of line? (Could this be out of line?)
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously

Solitude

This is getting so annoying. Why do i feel like that?!

1,2,3,4 You make it easy

Late night + loved ones + htht(s) + cheap food @ Macs + laughter + love = a hell of a fun time.

I've never laughed so hard for a long time alr, the feeling makes me feel ditzy and dizzy with happiness all over again.

Loved the company, the photos, the look-alikes, the unsuccessful cab flaggings after 10 (NEVER TRY TO FLAG A CAB AFTER 10 THEY WILL ALL IGNORE YOU WHICH RESULTS IN YOU SCREAMING 'OMG YOU SUCK!'), and many many more. I wished we could just repeat the night again (without the sad part :( ) and rewind, pause, play, rewind, pause, play.

I shall tell you everything that happened tonight (Thurs night) tomrrow (Friday) cuz even though the post says its Friday now, it's actualy 1.10am in the night which makes it the next day so yeah. I am dead beat from all the stupid carbon monoxide and waving of arms to get cabs.

Htht(s) do not need to be sad, i just realised htht(s) only need to come from the heart. And that's a simple truth i overlooked. I like htht(s) :D

On a much darker note, Please Pray for (), someone whom needs alot of support right now. It's so depressing to spend your birthday in a () and it's even more scary when you're gonna undergo something that may lead to your death. Brave, strong, courageous, i admire her but i can't help but to feel concern. Pray, pray, pray.

And i have to stop running away from things i don't like to face!

You make it easy,

as easy as

1,2, 1,2,3,4

if you made it so easy why can't i take it that easily too?!

600th

I just realised that this is my 600th post.

• Today was so screwed.
• I can vaguely remember things that happened today.
• I was really tired and stressed out, so yeah.
• I need to go kk tmr. And buy flowers.
• Remember, remember, remember
• I don't like chinese. Period.
• I wonder when this is going to end because it's making me drop hair.

I'm so tired. I don't even wanna carry on with my daily routine. It's becoming so mundane and silly that i'm so sick of living. Sequential, there's nothing nice nor suprising except coming home to play. Then again, even though the ball is in my court and i enjoy playing, i don't know the rules and i'm sorry but i don't wanna play anymore.

It's a joke, nobody knows

Gave everything she had to a boy, who changed his mind,
we both cried

I've got to let it go,
and just enjoy the show

Before it all ends,
before we run out of time

Fifteen

And when you're fifteen and,
somebody tells you they love you,
you're gonna believe them

MICHELLE

Dear Michelle, i know i owe you a v.belated birthday post but this one's for you!

Yay we met at the end of 2006 when we supposedly looked like each other :D

And i guess it was fate that brought us to the same group for our first church camp (revamp)

+ It was awesome and i'm glad i found someone like you!

Here's to our 3 years of friendship and though it seems like i've known you for manymany years alr,

i love you(!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

(Ps. i think we totally changed our looks cuz the 2 pics above are seriously lacking in similarities.)

(Pps. but we still love each other no matter what right! :D)

Love,

bel

Trust

Even though trust is intergral, i find that i'm trusting you a little too much. Out of my comfort zone and hey, if you don't mind, i'd like a little bit more respect for things that i tell you.

My heart is going to pop

Slow it down, make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop
Cause its to much, yea its alot
To be something I'm not

I'm a fool, out of love
Cause I just can't get enough

Sundays

I love Sundays(!!) Other than the fact that it's a weekend and i don't have to go to stupid school, Sundays give me girl time that i constantly crave for and let me have my ohso impt htht with girlfie through smses HAHA and i find that i really enjoy Sundays :) A place/time of worship, in the presence of God and close friends, oh Sunday- i'm in love~

Okay and on a muchmuchmuch darker note, what am i thinking(?!) To like or not to like, that is the question. Blah maybe ignorance IS bliss but i can't help but to feel inclined to do something.

Indecisive

Okay you know what. I'm gonna screw myself up thinking.

Buh

Pink :
whale make what sound ah?

Redhead :
BUHHHHH



I love you bing, LOVE FORGIVE FORGET

Don't let me go

It rained paper, I tore every piece apart so they can't read me.
I stopped speaking so my words can't be misused.
They won't come back to haunt me.

Today saw, tiredness, exhaustion and a routine of what chinese does to your mental welfare and such. Today, also saw sadness, tears, and facades that i sometimes percieved to be fake. But we'll never know whether it's truly genuine, due to dg.

Oh and i like hedley and this song :

Because I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely?
Or is someone loving you?

Hello, is it me you're looking for?

Rain, rain, go away

Okay i figured i haven't posted any decent readable understandable posts these few days and i think i should do so now. So, long rants or short phrases, get ready to read one of my ultra super naggy posts again. :)

Life has been treating me rather well, i guess. Or rather, God has been treating me rather well. My whole week has just been filled with thoughts of () and obviously i can't really concentrate on anything else. At least school now feels like an escape. From akward silences and expected reactions and lots and lots of thinking. I needed an escape and the week proved school to be a good one.

My results pretty much suck as usual. First F9s, E8s, D7s, you name it, i have it. It's v.irritating when they blame it on transition and all. But maybe then again, that is the cause. Idk and I don't care. I don't like change and that's that.

Did i mention it's been raining for the past whole week. Rain is.. good. Rain makes me feel nostalgic, lonely, rather sad actually. The thunder and lightning seemed to be pouring their sorrows together with me as i sat near the window with my usual cup of hot chocolate. The rain made me think, made me consider different things, made me remember what it was like to be naive and totally rid of hatred and unkindness. Whatever. Things have changed and people change along with it.

I'm so disgusted with myself. For hiding and underlying whatever that was true, i spinned a web of lies and contradicting truths to totally change my way of thinking. I'm sorry. I don't know if i () or not.

Wake up call, it's 415 in the afternoon now. It's a wet Saturday and it's still raining :(

what

So, you DO expect something. Not just nothing. It comes with a price right. I am ready, not just to get my heart broken, but to anticipate how you're gonna break it.

Blah

I feel v.blah. Like, blah blah blah.

Standing still

The more i think the more i believe the more i'll convince myself the more delusional it will be the more complicated it'll get the more complex it'll become the more hurt i'll feel when the end comes the more you'll be confused the more you'll learn to hate me the more i'll feel sad the more i wish i'd never met you the more i wish you'd die the more irratation i'll feel the more annoyed i'll be and then.


And then what?

I'm love sick somewhere, tonight

Omg. Oys. Omg. Oys. I have no intention on blogging now actually but there's this SICK SENSE OF DREAD IN MY STOMACH AND DREAD = NOT GOOD, SO OBVIOUSLY I DON'T FEEL WELL AT ALL NOW. Don't you know that you put so much pressure in me until i'm going out of my mind? I am sick and tired of your academic goals for me and i don't really want to bother now about how much i fared for Term 1. Believe it or not, i failed more than half of my subjects and i really hope you'd just leave. me. alone.

And it isn't hard to believe, i think you cheated on me

I'm love sick somewhere tonight
I'm love sick somewhere tonight

I don't need writing on the wall
I felt it for so long
Am I even on your mind
Or are you now in

Someone else's eyes
someone else's arms
Someone else's obvious moves
I'm a jealous guy
I hear people talk
And it isn't hard to believe
I think you cheated on me

I've been this love sick before
I've felt just like this before

There was another just like you
I loved her for so long
But I had poison on my mind
And I drove her into

Someone else's eyes
someone else's arms
Someone else's obvious moves
I'm a jealous guy
I hear people talk
And it isn't hard to believe
I think she cheated on me

I've said I've had this stage before
But I left an open door
For this to walk into my life

And maybe I suspect too much
But this is hard for me to trust
When I'm all wound up inside
I just drive you often into

Someone else's eyes
someone else's arms
Someone else's obvious moves
I'm a jealous guy
I hear people talk
And it isn't hard to believe
I was never easy to please
I think you cheated on me
You cheated on me
I think you cheated on me