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ILY MICH <33333

haha we look like sisters right?

cover the eyes and *POOF*

SYMETRY.

You put the stars in the sky and you know'em by name.

see you on Sun with ur present, love :D (mich)

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camp was GREAT. yes it was!

i expierenced God, really.

AND MY GROUP WON, BEAT THAT!

:D

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camp was greattttttttttttt.

but i didn't sleeep at the last night, was up the whole night.
caught up with jo ann! we bitched bout PL :D
haha loler camp was fun, expierenced God, yes i did.

i wanna go out tmr, there's covernant service ):


peace.

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changed my blogskin(:
i think its nice.
yay me, love.

camp's tmr, crap i dunwanna go.
i dunwana i dunwana i dunwanna.
):

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hey love, merry xmas.
<3


i miss you so, so, so much.
i don't sound happy.
yheah that's cos i'm not, loler.

you don't know no shit manxz,
the irony is you, its all about you.
i'm sick of it, but what the bloody hell can i do, huh.
i miss you, alot.

heh, i miss you until i can't feel myself.


where's the xmas spirit, certainly, its not in me.
loler.

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it probably seems like a short time since i've posted but its long to me, yes. ya see, i'm tired of the blogskin and i wanna change alr ):

out with sylvia, sara and jx to celebrate jx's birthday! haha we went to her house like 10+ and her mom let us in :D okayokay skip the details, bought her a STRAWBERRY cake <3 and went to macs. me and sylvia were like hiding the cake behind us when she sat down. and we only bought a coke from macs :D


okay then they came my house and we played like some mad ginas, ha i went wild.



don't cry, don't cry, don't cry.

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You're about 5 months late, friend.
Ha. The irony, really.

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HELL, I'M GONNA BRING YOU DOWN MANXZ

no more, i'm not going to take it anymore.
i'm gonna bring you so down, you ain't gonna bring y'self up.
enough of this ridiculous suffering, you disgust me.
show'em what'cha got, but no way man, am i gonna listen to ur shit.

you're gonna go down.


hello blog,
today was nice and tiring, watched enchanted for the 3rd time.


My tears run down like razorblades
And no, I'm not the one to blame
It's you ' or is it me?

And all the words we never say
Come out and now we're all ashamed
And there's no sense in playing games
When you've done all you can do

I lose myself in all these fights
I lose my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry
It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life I led
But I won't let it die, but I won't let it die

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

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You Communicate With Your Ears

You love conversations, both as a listener and a talker. What people say is important to you, and you're often most affected by words, not actions. You love to hear complements from others. And when you're upset, you often talk to yourself. Music is very important to you. It's difficult to find you without your iPod.

How Do You Communicate?

music is my life and i can't live without it.
God too.
haha and yes i talk to myself(:

xoxo,
isabel

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FOR EVERY GLANCE YOU SHOT AT ME


okay, new skin! same old blog :D
i almost quit blogging.
almost.



We're all looking for something,
To take away the pain

Can you feel it?
Do you feel it?
Coming down

You gotta get up
Can you get up
Off the ground

Can you hear it?
Can you hear me screaming?








i need you,
to take away the pain

xoxo,
isabel

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heh, never thought i would have broken down like that.
i asked for a sign, you gave me a BIG one.
Thanks, God. (note : no sacarsm here)

so anyway, appart from like stoning and hearing the rain today,
we went to elaine's house for cluster(:
i dun even know why i even bother posting this.
ohwell, who cares.
yeah, so alot of things happened, zzz


I wanna believe,
i really do.


xoxo,
isabel

my tattoo(:

ahah! its my tatto(:
so cool!!

see! told ya i'll put in pics(:
yeah only one picture la wtv, still.


xoxo,
isabel

nobody told me it was going to end like this

no srsly, i'll put a picture here now, only if
my phone didn't go in for servicing, i'm sorry.




we don't really talk anymore, do we? nah, we don't talk AT ALL. and you told me forever. sometimes i think that you know i'm suffering. but maybe you don't after all. i'm always fronting you, can't you tell? you've always been this clueless. i just want things to be back the way they were.

nobody told me it was going to end like this.

xoxo,
isabel

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isit me? or do my posts need some colour?
haha okay.

i think reading my blog is boring.
so why read it o.O
ah, well.

went lunch with sylvia, jx and suxia today,
haha it was fun.
its always fun.
somehow today was like, starting anew-fun.
yeah. so went to sch aft that to give sumay the $$$
:D


hmm, went to town, bought a shirt from
forever 21.

homed with mommy(:


somehow i chose to forget you.
somehow you came back.
somehow seeing you makes me forget.
somehow it was like starting anew, i guess.

so many somehows :/


xoxo,
isabel

i love pool, billard, snooker, WHATEVER

okay this post is dated 22nd of November, THURSDAY.

mmm, lets see. today was damn fun x333 lah :D
okay, first i met HUI SHAN <3 at the JAP RESTAURANT <33333 in heartland.

i love the jap restaurant lah ): i wanna eat there again!

then we saw, amanda chong! hahaha she was gg for her tution or smth.
okayokay, then eat liao le hor, we went to !CELINE'S house to play,
POOL.
BILLARD.
SNOOKER.

but in the end we ended up watching The Fog, oooh.
it was super scary lah. haha
but damn funny. hahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. okay.

then we finally went to play,
POOL.
BILLARD.
SNOOKER.

yeah, FINALLY.
but we had to leave like half an hour earlier cos of the guard and some ppl.
SCREW THEM D:

okay nvm, so we went to play bball!
AND I KICKED CELINE IN THE BUTT, YESSSSSSSSS.
(cos she was shaking it(: )

Today was the funnest x3333333 day i've had in weeeeeeks :D
<3



i miss you

xoxo,
isabel

i am in my hot cousin's house

okay like, im suppose to post what i wrote on my notebook ytd.
but i didn't bring it :

AND IM IN MY HOT COUSIN'S HOUSE.
HIS NAME IS DAVID SANJAY SINGH SAMBHI

woo, 'm happy yeah.
ILY.
ILYILYILYILYILYILYILY.

I-LOVE-YOU.


xoxo,
isabel

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lets see, went to bishan library today.
and guess who i saw?
ALTHEA.
i like, see her everywhere i go lah!

anw, so we went to bishan library.
and you know who we saw?
ELVINA.
HAHA. singapore is small, i guess.



i don't wanna talk about it anymore.



xoxo,
isabel

new moon

okay, like, i was on a hiatus for like, many many days.
and i have to make this damn fast.

I BOUGHT NEW MOON AND IT SUCKS MAAAAAN.
now waiting for someone to buy me eclipse.
like, edward left her for 4 months,
SHE WASN'T EVEN ANGRY AT ALL.
if i was bella, i would chop edward's cock into half i tell you.

gah.


someone told me smth ytd tht really shocked me.
well, i guess its a clean break from next year onwards.
i even doubt the words "clean break"
hey, all the times that.. well, don't forget them.
like i will never forget you no matter how hard i try.
i miss you, can't you see?


xxoo,
isabel

books

went to j8 library with jx ytd.
met many many people(:

apparently, reading takese your mind of things.
like missing people.

get what i mean?


i don't know why i even try.

xoxo,
isabel

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happy birthday shithead, you only rocked ytd.
haha sry i didn't post ytd, was damn tired went i came back.

okay lets see,
we went to vivo to celebrate shithead's birthday.
watched the BEE movie.
woohoo(: it was damn fun lah.
AND DEAR JIAXUAN SPILLED THE NACHO CHEESE DURING THE MOVIE
:D

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA,
i'm prefably in a good mood i think.
ohwell,
sara's com spoil.
so she can't send me the pics.
so no pictures today.
boo):

xoxo,
isabel

hiatus

i'm like, on a hiatus these few days.
ah, there's so many many things clouding my mind.
past few days have been so hectic.
zomg(!) its the 3rd week of the hols and it doesn't even feel like a day.


mind over matter

xoxo,
isabel

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i'm getting over you, no?
yeah, no.

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what's your hp brand?
Nokiaaaaaaaa.

what are the last digits in your hp no.?
3508

what does the 12th message in your inbox say?
uh, "i'm so sorry! i didn't know you call me.. i was sleeping ah.. sorry:)"

Who's the first person under M?
MacDonalds

Who's the last person you rang?
HUI SHAN<3

Who's the last missed call from?
some unknown number, yes?

Who's the second person under D?
David

What does the last message in your inbox say?
its private.

Who's the 2nd last person under j?
uh, Jovien.

What does the 10th message in your sent items say?
i delete sent items.

Who's the 4th person under S?
Shabbna! :D

Who's your network provider?
o.O

How many messages are there in your inbox?
873

What do you have as your background?
RUSS<333

Who's the second person under r?
RUBY

Who do you have on speed dial 3?
lets just miss this question. its embarrassing.

if you're using prepaid how much credit do you have left?
-$100

who's the last person under C?
CLARA(:

What's your ringtone?
vibration? i dno. its always silent.


stolen from ALTHEA(:


xoxo,
isabel

twilight

as we dance, in the twilight.


ZOMG(!) my mom bought my TWILIGHT <333
PRISCILLA, LETS SCREM TOGETHER, AH? AH!
:D

and i am terribly, horribly, un-doubtly sorry about my 3rd piercing, daddy(:
my 3rd piercing is also terribly, horribly, un-doubtly sorry for itself o.O

churched today(:
something nice happened anyway.

xoxo,
isabel

PINK PSP

WOOHOO. MY LIMITED EDITION PINKKK PSP FROM JAPAN. NO MORE DREAMING OF NINTENDO DS :D haha
AND I GOT MY 3RD PIERCING YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

aww maaaan i love friday, 021107.
zomg (!) lemme tell you from the start.


oh-kay. first i went to school(gym) to meet sylvia & jx.
and then we went to jx house to put her books.
then we went to white tangerine to eat :D
haha and damn, was it fun! (i don't care about damn alr la, pris D: , sry!)
we were like, trying to play daidi and then jiaxuan was like.. totally CLUELESS.
LOL then food came and free-loader sylvia drank finish my soup.

okay then we went to heartland and pierce my ear(:
oh and they were selling really nice doughnuts!
they were damn pretty la (except for the chocolate :D)
haha but like they copy the doughnut factory or smth, wait i post the pic.
ah(!) FORGEDDIT. blogger screwed, pic can't upload T.T

anyway, then they sent me back to school for handbells :D
it was oh-kay i guess, played base for jinglebell rock.
and amanda wasn't there so ____ had to replace her, aww maaaan T.T

after handbells, crossed the road with dayna to the opp. bus stop.
then her 62 came so i still had to wait for my 113 la.
and then suddenly, i heard someone calling me
and i saw, jx and sylvia T.T
apparently sylvia went to her house and they played the monster game,
again.
haha so sylvia was also gg heartland la then in the bus it was damn stupid xD
haha and we were acting like complete retards while on the way to heartland.
i went to buy another 2 doughnuts and she went to buy her T.T shushi.

and by the time i got home, it was like.. 7.30?
haha then ate and went to suntec with my rents((:
AND MY DADDY BOUGHT ME THE LIMITED EDITION PINK PSP FOR CHRISTMAS
yesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.
ILY :D

xoxo,
isabel

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JIAXUAN WANTS TO READ THIS :
SHE CAN'T DEFEAT THE MONSTER IN CARTOON NETWORK.
):
EVEN THOUGH SHE HAS DONE IT BEFORE.

JIAXUAN AND I LOVE BOMBAY.
WOOHOOO
AND IF SHE AND SYLVIA DOESN'T TURN UP FOR LUNCH TMR,
IM GONNA DISOWN THEM AND ABANDON THEM AT BOMBAY
AND THEY CAN FIGHT MOHAMAD ALI ALONE.

WOOHOO
isabel

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screw ____
i'm bringing all of you down with me.
hell, yeah.

thanks to althea and steph,
i lived.
oh and we went boyscoutting in st.gab.
and we've all decided to quit school and be the 3 new
HOT janitors at A__I
go figure(:


isabel

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you'll be expecting 2 posts from me today.
and now is like 8.30 in the morning..
couldn't sleep at all last night,
there's really some unsettling things in my mind.
and i had a dream.
okay i did sleep but only for an hour or 2.

and the dream.. was nice(:
yeahh first time in years that i have a nice dream.
anyway, ever heard of reading makes you forget everything?
well, im reading 24/7 , and,
it doesn't actually seem to be helping :
ohwell.

later meeting pris and clara for lunch before we go back to school(!)
for prefects meeting, and the results :
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.


_____ come online now and comfort me T.T
isabel

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Don't take too long to say
"I love you" to the ones you love,
cause time has a habit of slipping away
And the words that seem so hard to say,
come out when you've gone away.



yeah today was fun.
it helped me forget about something that was very..
unsettling in my mind.
the prefect meeting was uh, cancelled.
yepp, so went to jx house with sylvia
and we watched all the pokemon episodes of the jhoto league championship(!)
so childish xD
but it was fun, today was really fun.


i want to forget you.
i really do.
isabel

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I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the Pacific and
You might think I'm losing my mind
,But I will shy away from the specifics...

'cause I don't want you to know where I am
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.

Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.

I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again'
cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.

I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
To create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up.
I heard the reverberating footsteps
Synching up to the beating of my heart,
And I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.

And I can't let that happen again
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.



that's 3 quaters of the song.
its nice, and its WHO I AM HATES WHO I'VE BEEN.
by Reliant K.

this is the first song that i actually like,
that has totally nothing to do with how i feel now.
in fact, now i feel terrible.
my heart is breaking.
and for those who have never experienced a heartbreak,
dont.

isabel

nothing showing on the outside, something dying on the inside

nothing showing on the outside, something dying on the inside.
i never think about you but you're always on my mind.
i'm getting over you, most of the time.


ha. ha. HA.
okay, i have so many things that i want to do this holiday.
oh and i really wanna pierce my ear D:
and watch the seeker (!)
and buy many many many many things for christmas,
oh yes.

apparently now i'm just iddling at home.
ohwell.
so much for ambition.
besides, i learnt the guitar chords for dance hall drugs.
by the boys like girls you dimwitt.
haha and it rocks. with a capital R.


oh and i bought the BOYS LIKE GIRLS CD.
that's another wish striked off.
ITS TIME TO UPDATE THY WISHLIST :D
oh and did i mention?
Tuesday is SCREWED.

8.30-10.30 violin.
11.00 return report book
12.00 prefect meeting (!)

oh great yeah the only thing im dreading is the prefect meeting.
i don't think i'll get in.
although i hope. (like who wouldn't)
Pray..

isabel

i really like you

i really DID like you.
how i wish ___ will never end.

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maybe we're trying, trying to hard.

i am so, so, so bloody stressed.
everybody's just pissing me off.
EVERYBODY.

ohshit.
i just backspaced 2 paragraphs.
ohwell.
something hurts.
something hurts alot, it really hurts.
i don't know where
i don't how to ease it.
i think its in my heart.

oh and i have to hate.
its because of some stupid selfish reason, really selfish,
that i have to hate.


isabel

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OH. IM INVITED TO ANOTHER WEDDING :D so exciting! its my ex-counsellor's wedding. haha so coooool. haha the previous wedding i attended, the bride was wearing a HOT PINK DRESS.

like zomg? haha today was oh-kay lah. we watched some musical in the morning.
RED! THE BLOOD OF ANGRY MEN,
BLACK! THE COLOUR OF SOMETHNG SOMETHING DAWN !
haha sarajane and me were like singing our way through.

oh and math was the best. it was just the best. we were like rushing la. and we had to borrow the laptop from ms Quek : she's so nice! haha. the only thing i rmbr about the presentation is

(puppet show)
sylvia : "HELLO!"
me : "HELLO!"
sylvia : "MY NAME IS ISABEL!"
me : "AND MY NAME IS SYLVIA!"
sylvia : "IM FAT!"
isabel : "IM STUPID!"

it was super funny x333. hahahhahahahha. then after that she got training so i accompany sara until she finish eating and doing her brochure.
then i homed :D


maybe we're trying, trying too hard
isabel

BASKETBALL<3

BASKETBALL<3
its the bestestxzt.
:D
DRUMS<3
is the bestestxztxzt.
:DD
MY IPODNANO<3
its the bestestxztxztxzt.
:DDD


and when i can, i'll go post the picture of my
DRUMS.
its wine reddddd (no pink D:)
and my ipodnano :D
oh my. the Lord has blessed me with manymany things.
I STILL WANNA LEARN HOW TO PLAY ELECTRIC GUITAR ):

ah.
lets drool over dance floor anthem.
COS THE BEGINNING LINE IS PLAYED BY AN ELECTRIC GUITAR<3
haha.
oh oh oh I LOVE BASTKETBALL.
how many times have i said that..

IF THAT'S OKAY WITH YOU(:
isabel

one of the best days of my life

lets just say today is one of the best days of my life.
yeah and thanks to niki, i found a new love.
A NEW LOVE.
BASTKETBALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.
:D

it was damn VERY fun ( can't say damn. ask pris why(x )
haha niki, me sarajane, sylvia, jiaxuan, DORY :D, cristy, MICHYYY, SUMAY and yingbing
went to Niki's hse to play b.ball.
it was damn fun la.
we shot a few hoops then we played MATCH
ME, SARAJANE, CRISTY, DORY.
SYLVIA, JIAXUAN, NIKI, MICHYYYYY :D
haha then obviously they won la cos got BART SIMPSONS (JIAXUAN)
but the score was 10-11. 1 MORE MARK CAN.
haha then played abit more and i kept screaming xD
then we went to makan!


if the doorbell is hungry,
and you don't feed it,
the bell can't ring,
and the door can't open!
and you'll be stuck there,
ALONG.

HEEEEEEEEEEE :D
DORY AND I CREATE ONE :D
SO COOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL.
okay then we went to one of the nearby coffeshops.
jiaxuan and sylvia bought some mee hoon something,
and i bought ban mian.
its actually the SAME. but the type of noodle is diff.
then DORY bought NASI LEMARK :D
and we drank super sweeeeeeeet milo :D

by then, sumay, cristy, michyyyyy and yingbing go home le.
then we went back to the court and played ABC

haha when it was DORY's turn, we sang
OLD MAC DONALD HAD A FARM, EEEYAEEEYA OH
AND ON THE FARM HE HAD SOME DUCKKKKKKS :D

when it was JIAXUAN'S turn, we sang
C-A-M-P-F-I-R-E-S-O-N-G SONG! :DDDDDDDD

when it was MY turn,
they went "BART SIMPSONS, POOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD! (MAINLY JIAXUAN)

when it was NIKI'S turn,
jx kept saying love love love love love!

when it was SYLVIA'S TURN,
"waiting for YOUR CALL, call im sick, call im angry"

when it was SARA'S TURN, (easy to gues la)
YOU MAKE ME SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEPY GIRL.

haha super fun can!
then DORY hurt her thumb D:
GET WELL SOON DORY!
WE LOVE YOU!
so she and sara had to go home.

AND THEN,
niki suggest play match.
so she and jiaxuan,
me and sylvia.

AND OBVIOUSLY THEY WON RIGHT.
zzz no need to say.
BUT IT WAS DAMN FUNNY (sry pris!)
hahahahhahahhhahahaahahah before the game started, me and sylvia were like singing
SHAYNE WARD'S "IF THAT'S OKAY WITH YOU"
hahahahahha then when niki and jiaxuan scored 3 points ahead of us,
we were like, all we have to do is shoot 3 more times!
then suddenly dunno wad happen i was blocking the ball and everyone crash together
HAHAHA and sylvia was like I WANT TO PEEEEEEEEEEEEE
I LAUGH UNTIL MY CHEEKS DAMN PAIN LA
then we could'nt get up for dunno wad reason
and then niki and jx kept shooting
then we kept counting the number of times they shot in
and then we were like

all we have to do is shoot more times!
5 more times!
6 more times!
7 more times!

then niki suddenly turn back and said
all you have to do is shoot 6 more times
and we doubled up laughing our abs of cos we thought is was 7 more
and niki counted wrongly :D
hahahhaahhaha it was super fun can
and then it was 6 alr so i called my daddy and he picked me outside CHERRY HILL.


I LOVE GOD :D
HE BLESSED ME WITH TODAY
:D
isabel

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DAMN THE STUUUUUUPID VIDEO THAT I CANNOT UPLOAD INTO BLOGGER.
OKAY DAMN BLOGGER.


there's a reason why God hasn't answered your prayer yet,
He hasn't quite rescued you from your suffering,
because He's strengthening your heart,
preparing your heart for something more.
He's teaching you.
trust in God.

Proverbs 3:5-6
"Lead not on your own understand, trust God with all your heart,
acknowledge Him in all your ways and He will direct your path."

all i wanna do is find a way back into love.
isabel

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i think my blog is dead.
no its worse then dead.
wads worse than dead?
go figure.

anyway, i want so many many many thingggssss! like
Boys like girls CD
a new watch

and then i have gotten many things.
LIKE THE PEARL DRUM SET.
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

okay lets talk about founder's day.
haha IT WAS DAMN FUNNY LAH
went to school in the morning
like.. 10? then called sara, still on her way.
called sylvia, at macs. so i ask her buy harshbrown for my breakfast.
then, helped ms nair.
not much la.
jx was there.
it WAS FRIGGING FUNNY.
she was like blowingggg balloon and i TOOK AT PHOTO.
haha
JIAXUAN,
BART SIMPSONS~
ahahahahahahahahahhahahahahaha.
then help liao hor,
went out of school to eat.

OMG.
THIS IS THE BEST PART.
then i was walking towards the busstop to meet amanda LIEW
and then i heard sylvia and sara calling my name,
i turned.
I SAW MS NEESA.
IN THE FLESH.
zomg x3
hahahahaahahhahahahahaahaha
so obviously i ran back la
chatted with her
until amanda called
then went to eat lunch with amandaaaa at opp. school there
and dayna came.
founder's day was oh-kay.
it was tiring, but okay.

then ytd,
wen ZI QING'S house for her nephew's birthday pt.
with sylvia and sara.
had funnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!
haha i wonder WHO ziqing's nerd cousin was looking at.
WHO AH WHO AH.
he has baaaaaaaad taste if you ask me.

:D
then went for drums
and piano.
yay!



if anyone can make me a better person
YOU COULD!
-must have done something right
by Reliant K


ISABELLLLL.

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when it all falls apart
):

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i have like 2 mins left to post.
so im gg to make it quick.

TO YOU :
what's with you? ah you are so..
unpredictable.
help? you got me smitten.


TO YOUYOU:
yeah so what? i might be nice at one time
and glare at you at other times.
cannot ah.
got problem isit? got problem then
DONT COME NEAR ME OR
MY FRIENDS LA.


TO ME ME ME:
isabel get of the com or daddy's gg to scold.
yeah see.
im so guai tht im gg off now.
byee.

i hate you,
and youyou.
but i love me me me.
get it?



nah.

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oh, and did you notice?
i stiked out manymany things on my wishlist
and added new ones!
yay!

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life is so short,
make the best out of it.
either you like it
or you don't.

don't say you want both.
because it irks me.
and the other side too.
it just not fair to both.

ohwell.
how i wish i can stop time.
hell, i'd give anything just to
______________.




ISABEL IS GOING TO GET DENGUE FEVER AND
AIDS.
*GASSSSSSSPPPPP*
yeah gasp gasp gasp FASTER.
haha.

i got bitten by an ades mosquito.
you know how i know?
well i will let you know how i know.

one day,
little miss isabel was waiting for her
daddy,
to park the car.
and then suddenly,
this really big, huge and mean
mosquito
came flying in her direction.

it landed on her.
*pause* *gasp*
then it opened its mouth
and started sucking contently on her
precious blood.
isabel looked down and saw the mean mosquito!

she used her watter bottle to HIT IT.
*claps, aplause*
and she looked at it.
*HUSH SILENCE*
OMG, ITS BLACK AND WHITE STRIPED.
*moans, faints*

okay.
see.
im going to get some sickness okay.
but for now,
i call this, the camp fire song song.

lets gather round the camp fire~
and sing the campfire song.
the C-A-M-P-F-I-R-E-S-O-N-G- SONG.
and if you dont think that we can sing it faster then your wrong,
but it'll help if you just sing along
(bom bom bom)

CAMPFIRESONG, CAMPFIRESONG
ANDIFYOUDON'TTHINKTHATWECANSINGITFASTERTHENYOURWRONG
BUTIT'LLHELP, IFYOUJUSTSINGALONGGGGGG.

:D
isabel

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I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

MY SOUL SONG.
its great to have finally found a
i-can-relate-to song.


loving you
was what i was trying to do
isabel

the rollercoaster

love gives us a fairy tale
and life is like a rollercoaster.


please, fall.

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im sick. sick. sick.
D:
cos' i vomitted like 6-7 times?
aww, poor isabel
D:
turns out its stomach flu
yeah, so im much better now(:



what did i do?
i miss you

isabel

happy birthday to ME

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

and if you want to know what to get,

get the guitar for meeeeee :D
i loveee it

isabel

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oh, you just don't know how much you've hurt me.
i wish i could just ________________________________________________

hagen diaz

Dear really-ridiculous-uncivilised-boiling-blooded ______,
i should have answered you questions the way i wanted to
like,


"can you stop yawning during the national anthem and start singing?"
to which my reply, in my head, was
"i don't seem to find any point of singing when

a. your symmetrical round eyes are are not looking around to register that everyone else aroud me is actually also, OPENING THEIR MOUTH TO TAKE IN OXGEN?!

b. correction, i am taking in large amounts of oxygen to fufil my pumping heart and i refuse to sing like a FOOL, when it is obvious (not to anyone but me apparently) that no one is singing.



"stop resting your head on your hands and, do not, i repeat, do not, give me that defiant stare everyday"
and the things i wanted to say :
"that's just ridiculous, you know i only stare at your beady eyes on tuesdays and thursdays during lessons, on wednesdays during chapel (horrible singing, by the way), every morning when you step into the hall and when i walk pass you in corridors. its not EVERYDAY, where else you irritated me everyday by saying

"can you wash your face?"
and yes, i can wash my face.

"oh its so hot! isabel, can you please turn on the fan for me?"
oh no, go on it yourself, shed some weight, dearie.

"i know you did not do well for your science (gives pitying look)"
no offence, sweetcakes, but i do not need you to tell me to eat my greens. in fact, my grades have absolutely NOTHING to do with you unless your name is isabel's parents. and i heard that your boyfriend is hideously ugly and you are an illegal immigrant; does that make it my buisness? so just leave me alone.

and therefore, i regretfully end my letter.
isabel.



okay today had videotaking for handbells!
and after that, went to sara's house(:
they bought me 2 tubs of haggen diaz ice creammmm :D
(:

love,
isabel

jonas brothers

omg.
omg.
omg.
like, wth?
JONAS BROTHERS.
JONAS BROTHERS.
JONAS BROTHERS.

i could just type the name all day long :D
they are oh so very very very very CUTEEEEEEEEE.
and i love hold on.
i don't care go listen!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

and we got into the bisc thingy.
:D
like hahahahahahahahahaha

ohmy.
yay!
isabel

feeling very very down

dang, im feeling very, very down.
"cheer up!"
like its that easy, isn't it.

well, what can i say?
im losing everything.
all my hopes.
yeah, i've lost it.
i've even lost..
oh well. at least i havent lost a few things yet.
:o


its just too hard to watch it all slowly fade away
isabel

To God be the glory~

TO GOD, BE THE GLORY, GREAT THINGS HE HAS DONEEEEE.
haha just came back from handbells(:
it was damn fun lah xD

AMANDA!
F,F,F,G :D

hahahahahhaha. okayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
im feeling so tired now :o
okay im gg to slackkk :D


im speechless
isabel

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went home from school today :o
had a headache D:

i've dedicated my life to piano.
because of the Laputa piano score.



at least i still have a reason.
isabel

Post

you know what?
instead of writting a stupid diary everyday,
i have a better idea.
haha :


here i go, scream my lungs out,
trying to get to you.
you are my only one

love,
isabel

well, what about us?

HELL-O.
school is, hell. a whole day of the same subject :
i won't live through it, NO way.

anyway, i guess today was fun though, had some shit carving and uh, paper cutting? and after school i had to stay back and meet my two new basket teachers! !wow. was so excited.

I MISS YOU MISS CHAN.
I really, really, really do!
COME BACK.


okay i guess that explains it all.


well, after school we hung out(: i miss hanging out with them. just the 3 of us :D and then sara had to go back for her piano class. AND SHE GOT A BLOODY DISTINCTION FOR HER GRADE7. like wth. congrats though(:

and then me and sylvia went to find jx and pris went home. so i TRIED teaching jx. and i kinda gave up. AND THEN MUI GEK CAME :D but jx also never study properly. -- and then went home in the end, daddy picked me!


kissmyass, youbloodybitch.
isabel

i need a lil more love

i looked through your archives.
and i thought, wasn't i BEST FRIENDS with you?
didn't i know you like i knew a childhood friend?

well, i guess you really irked me.
so much.
that i had to hate you.
your fake-ness, your commitments that were not fullfilled.
we could have been the best of friends by now.
hanging in starbucks, talking about hjdufgh.
but i guess not.

i really enjoyed myself ard you.
and i miss you.
and hate you.

ahhhhh im confused.
isabel.

im sorry.

im really, really, really sorry.
i didn't know what to do.
and you're reminded me of something really, really baad.

so i malfuntioned. and i didn't want both of you to see me cry.
anyway, sry bout the phone thing xD stupid nokia battery.
and hahahahahah i love signing on casts(:

friends forever okay?
hahahahhaha.


SORRY!
isabel

i still hate you.

i still hate you.
watch out.

Handing it all to God

im handing it all to God.

anyway, okay. lets talk about ESCAPE((: haha. okay. first we met outside the bustop in school at like 11.30. me, sylvia and sarajane la. and then jx was still taking re-test, and wye synn they all went first. so after jx's retest, we went(:

AND WE GOT LOST. thanks to who? and in th end even have to take taxi huh!? okay. then we went to haunted house :D it was scary (x1000000000000000) okay then i was like grabbing on to sylvia and jx la. and sara so brave. down there laughing away --

okay then we took the forgot ts name. turns you 360degrees UPSIDEDOWN. omg. for 3secs sommore. i almost died . and then took the water thing and i sat infront. and you know the infront person not suppose to get wet right? but who else but sylvia? keep splashing!

okay then took this stupid aero plane ride to dry ourselves :D and the rest i cannot rmbr.

actually i can.
im just playing pokemon.
D:
byee.

isabel loves fire(:

ESCAPE

ESCAPE. I WENT TO ESCAPE.
more details tmr :
really tired )):

SMACK THAT(:
ESCAPE((:
ISABEL(((:

you still care

Sometimes it's easier to say you don't care

instead of trying to explain every reason

why you still do;

who knew.

who knew.
by pink.
its really nice(:

guardian angel also. tht one really rocks((:
not forgetting JENNY, and LIGHT UP THE SKY.
haha.
and maybe HEY THERE DELILAH<33

and lastly, PRIS'S SONG.
OVER YOU BY DAUGHTRY.
okay priscilla. ADMIT.
bindhu (evergreen) said you wanted someone to sing to you jenny.
AND, jiaxuan say you have a crush ._.
so WHO IS IT. ((:

i so want tht mp3.
i don't even know a single detail about it.
i just saw it,
and fell in love with it :/

ohwells.
SCREW THE INNOCENT :D
isabel

isabel misses blogging

it seems like i miss blogging so much(:
and im addicted to miami nights.

oh poor me.

sweets :}

PUSH POPS :}

grape push pop to be exact. haha im simply in love with it right now :D but where's the grape :/ anyway, went to church today((: and then uh. went to IKEA. andddddddddddddd IKEA HAS NEW STOCK OF PINK ITEMS.

etc : pink com. tables, pink chairs, pink beds, pink shelves.. !zomg

hahahhahaha. and daddy and i are gg to look at drums later(: i think today's a niceee day. there's no piano, and no school tomorrow. i feel like dyingggg from happiness :D

blogger is still roughly screwed la.

isabel

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i can finally see my own blog! blogger's not that screwed after all((: but uh. tagboard is screwed D: which makes no difference cos overall, my blog is still screwed.

anyway today was stupid. and fun. yes. and i didn't know we had so many choices to make in a day. my brain is FUSED. omg. and STUFF happened today. they just did. haha im so confused now also. i think isabel has a rather hardddd life D:


well, i guess i'd better go.
bye world.
isabel made her mark.

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ohmann. i never knew i could feel this bad.

what is gg on in my mindddd

sometimes i think people really wonder what the hell is gg on in isabel's mind. why does she look so lost or blur.

haha. well i shall tell you then. there are, ALOT of things gg through my mind. like what steps to make next, what's gg to happen in my ever-so-gloomy future, the regrets of my wrong moves tht have good outcomes (obviously not to me).

and then there are things like, oh-my-gawd is she always so bitchy?! or, wtf i think im gg to barf at her fake-ness. there are even thoughts like, the sky is falling, isabel is hallucinating.

then again there are sad thoughts tht comes together with a stabbed heart. thoughts like, "oh nevermind. at least she's happy". those are the KILLER thoughts.


you would never wanna spend a day with my thoughts.
not even an hour.
or a milli-second.
my brain is gonna burst.


isabel

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201th post.

great. really. its just so great. i have to keep my mind of it. although nothing's helping at this point of time. and just one word, just one word, brings back so many memories.

i can't say im learning to get over you, cos im not. im just trying.


okay anyway, its hell time i came back down to earth and start talking non-crap. okay lets see. I BOUGHT A HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT PIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINK JACKET. zomg. its really H.O.T. it even has matching trackpants! hahahahaahhahahaa. from converse((:

went to church today. was kinda fun, went to this densi place or whatever la. played games blah. anyway nothing much to say about sunday.


BUT I PASSED MY GRADE 5 EXAMMMMMM :D

and that sums it all up to, i can black another box in my wishlist((: one down! im getting my Hi-5 for goooooooooooood results((: 3 A1s :D hahhahaa.


I won't try to philosophize
I'll just take a deep breath and I'll look in your eyes
This is how I feel
And its so surreal

200th post

oh great.
my 200th post and im sad.


i buried the hatchet with her for you.
i finally saw, that you wanted to be close to her again.
and if i'm not the one to cheer you up, she would.
besides, im not hurting anyone anymore.
so i guess you can go back to her again.
even if it really hurts.


Now that it’s all said and done
I can’t believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down
Like an old abandoned house
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath
I fell too far, was in way too deep


i never saw it coming,
i should have started running,
a long, long time ago.
isabel

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i feel so drained of energy. so immune by the pain. lost of love.

oh wells.
its happening again.
only this time, i can only stand and watch.
and do nothing.


help me would you?
i tried my best.
and im not expecting you to do anything.
im just wishing.

im probably wasting my time, thinking.
i'd rather not face reality.


im sorry.
eh wait.
i should'nt be.
you're sorry,
right?

OVERRRRR. RAWRRRR.

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRR. RAWRRRRRRR. ahaha! no more mugging! ANTI-MUGGING ((:

so anyway, today was science and math. okay. uh. i breezed through science, like !zomg right. hahaha. for once in my life i breezed through science and found it easyyyyyyy((: math is gone case. lets not talk about. shhhh..

and then wanted to go ps niki treat us to balls! but then we thought sj (btw who is grounded for the rest of her life D:) had the OMEN. HAHHAA. so we went there to watch. and in the end? no omen -- OKAY so we bought ruffles from 7-11 and went back to her house.

and watched 28 weeks dunno what.

and it was scary. there were zombies and everything. so much blood and gore! Thank God for pillows! haha and half of the time me and sylvia kept sliding down her every-so-slippery sofa --


and now im home! ((:
post later again!
isabel

forgiveness

todays' cell talked about friendships and forgiveness. like omg. i needed that tharapy session. and i had my pepsi light and phone to back me up. so yeah. anyway there was this story.

here we go! :D

there was this boy, who could'nt control his anger. his dad told him that everytime he blew up, he had to push a nail through the fence. so one day he could control! and his dad said, everytime he could control his anger, he had to pluck out his nails.
so obviously one day no more nails. then the dad said, even if the nails are taken out, there are still holes. in a way, it means that what you said that hurt someone, would always stay in their hearts no matter how much you say sorry.


so im sorry ___. i really am. but i still have a grudge. and everytime its me who has to say sorry first. i really don't like that. but still.. im sorry for all that i said to you(:

and to ANOTHER PERSON, you called me a sluty bitch. so go to hell. then again im sorry for hurting your feelings and everything. but still, go to hell. i hate you.


(: HISTORY IS FINALLY OVER~ :DDD haha it was quite managable. cos' i studied! ((: anyway next up is math and science on monday. im dead. a DEAD DUCK. ahh. okay anyway today stayed in school like.. until 6+? :D and i played, and played, and played(:

haha i really appreciate you. but im just not prepared to love you yet.
isabel.

say goodbye

I HATE THIS SONG.

Baby come here and sit down, let's talk
I got a lot to say so I guess I'll start by
Saying that I love you,
But you know, this thing ain't been
No walk in the park for us
I swear it'll only take a minute
You'll understand when I finish, yeah
And I don't wanna see you cry
But I don't wanna be the one to tell you a lie so

How do you let it go?
When you,You just don't know?
What's on,The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Everything I tried to remember to say
Just went out my head
So I'ma do the best I can to get you to understand

There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you, it's me
I kinda gotta figure out what I need
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

Girl I know your heart is breaking
And a thousand times I
Found myself asking, "Why? Why?"
Why am I taking so long to say this?
But trust me, girl I never
Meant to crush your world
And I never
Thought I would see the day we grew apart
And I wanna know

How do you let it go? When you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Girl I hope you understand
What I'm tryna say.
We just can't go on
Pretending that we get along
Girl how you not gonna see it?

say goodbye - chris brown.

and how i wish he'd NEVER have created this song. i hate it. I HATE THIS SONG. I REALLY DO. it irks me. D: no i really really don't like that song. take a look at the lyrics. i hate it.

gotta go mug again D: only here by the request of dear bindhu with her.. uh. ever lasting stupid profound irritating complex dictionary in her head.
oh help me. im suffering from jelousy.

then again, take it i didnt say that.
isabel.

hiatus~

I AM GG ON A HIATUS.

let me tell you why.

this friday - History common test
next monday - Maths and Science test
TOMORROW - english summary and situational writting

ahh D: so i'll be gone, busy mugging for like.. 6days! THAT'S ALMOST A WEEK. ahh D: so cruel. but i try to post if i go ppl's house and use their com :D


What is a CIVILISATION?
it is the advance culture OF people WHO live together AND have the same CULTURE.
E-L-A-B-O-R-A-T-E :D
haha sylvia im your slave driver for history :D


byeeeeeee.
isabel((:

whatever

omg im so glad its finally over. there's no more burden in my heart anymore I CAN LIVE LIFE PEACEFULLY WITHOUT SOME STUUUUUUUUPID FRIENDSHIP THINGY.
PLEASE, IM BEGGING YOU, PLEASE HATE ME.



okay. anyway, today was the INTERVIEW. ahhhhhhh. haha it was alright la. and i just have to get this out of my system. DONT THINK BECAUSE I TALKED TO YOU, MEANS I DON'T HATE YOU ANYMORE. i was MOCKING you.

you're such an idiot. don't come over to talk to me. im still hating you. and im sorry it had to turn out this way. but please, you're HEARTLESS.

anyway after school was fun(: shan't elaborate but it was the nicest thing of the day :D
and went home with pris and stephanie :DD and i MUGGED. FOR 2STRAIGHT HOURS. yes. im so tired now. ahhhhhhhh. DD:


let me light the sky, light it up for you.
let me tell you why, i will die for you.
isabel :D

joy's pt

ah! sorry i could'nt post yesterday. i came back at like.. 11? after sending celine and shan of. but oh nevermind i shall tell you about the pt!

okay. so i sent celine there and uh, rachel, DOR, xinyi, suxia, wye synn, fanya and victoria was there liao :D and then shan came! okay so we ate doughnuts and rachel took my phone so obviously i chased her right. then it was FRIGGING FUNNY. haha i didnt run and she was like running, jumping, hopping and everything and i just found shortcuts to grab her :D

okay then we went to the playgrd and there was a spider web thingy :D shan so pro! climb so highhhhh :DD okay then we put our feet on the rope and took a pic. it was damn cool can! i try post it next time :D

okay then we went back and IT GETS REALLY FUN NOW. I PUSHED JOY INTO THE POOL. And my MAIN AIM was CELINE. I MANAGED TO PUSH CELINE IN TOO! AND THEN SHE PUSHED ME IN T.T and next was RACHEL. hahahahahaa. she damn idiot la! keep ducking and getting away. but in the end after she wash of her gel, I PUSHED RACHEL IN. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

okay and then there were these float sticks. so we were like forming 2 grps! celine, rachel and suxia, then me, joy, shan and DOR! okay then we were like hitting lah! hahaha. and then shan the superwoman keep hitting celine again and again and again and again like 20-30 times in a row. zomg! haha.

okay so after that we went to bathe except for rachel! dirtydirty! xD and im not mean! neither am i a death eater of you-know-who DD: and then we ate realy nice spagetthi and hotdogs and chickenwings and stingray :D then we watched EVANS ALMIGHTY.

okay and rachel borrowed my hp and scrolled through. HELLO i was right behind her. so i took hers and scroll through too! HAHAHAHA. so scandalous xDD and then she keep wrapping my head with a blanket and i ALSO DID OKAY. IM NOT P-H-A-T-E-T-I-C :D and then we were like kicking and gossipping :DD and then each time one of the hps vibrated on the table, me and rachel will go rush to see if our dad is calling. end up is celine T.T

and then i sent celine and shan back :D

it was damn fun. THANKS JOY AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY! hope you like our presents! LOVE YOU! haha! and RACHEL IM NOT MEAN DD: and thanks to another person who cheered me up in the midst of the pt :D really appreciated!

and then i was smsing at night. and I KNOW MORE SONGS THAN YOU SYLVIA CHIA. :D and ac, Thank God that you cracked the code -- naturally. LASTLY, RACHEL IM STILL NOT MEAN!! haha!

okay woke up for church today and im here typing now :D before piano class. --


first you say you will,
then you say you won't.
You keep me hanging on,
but we're not moving on.


i LOVE you :D
isabel

i experienced love again

Death is rolling in every verse.


today was, okay i guess? actually it was more than okay. it was FUN! haha cab-ed to ps and met dor. then we took balls for lunch :D and then went up to meet sylvia, xin yi, suxia and andrea at arcade and i daytona-ed! reminds me of the ol' times(:

okay and then we were left with like.. an hour? so we went to walk walk blahblah carefore-ed, music-ed and yeah.. just jalan jalan lor((: and then we went to buy popcorn and everything for the movie. THE MOVIE WAS DAMN FUNNY CAN. i was like laughing laughing la!

but it was so cold D: and sylvia kept kicking me. ahhhhhhh but the movie was NICE. and i shared food with DOR :D

so after the movie they went home i think. and i met celine cos she wanted to buy her.. CRUMPLER. took a mrt to somerset and walked to find paragon :D and then she bought her.. DAMN EX CRUMPLER. and it was limited edition.

just that it was green. and i HATE green can. and then we bought joy's present for her pt tomorrow :DD hahahahhahaaa i was laughing the whole time the 2 girls were trying to con us into buying some thing that i cannot say :DDD and then sent her home and went home too :D

so here i am.
burnt, blacked, and HICUPPING D:

ah Lord stop the hiccups DD:

and i felt.. love again. i learnt to love again too!
isabel is happy. and feels love.

i hate that i can't hate you at all

10 things i hate about you:

10. i hate the fact that you keep entering my train of thought
9. i hate the fact that you have the ability to affect my heartbeat
8. i hate the fact that your smile has the ability to turn my whole day around
7. i hate the fact that because of you, i have to grapple with the fear of losing what little hope i have
6. i hate the fact that you make me lose whatever control i have over my feelings
5. i hate the fact that you are disrupting my daily life
4. i hate the fact that knowing you is very emotionally-draining
3. i hate the fact that i just can't seem to stop
2. i hate the fact that you just don't seem to care, and you don't take initiatives
1. but most of all, i hate the fact that no matter how hard i try, i just can't seem to hate you at all.

yes i cant hate you(:
you seem to make me smile when im angry(:

isabel

NATIONAL DAY

First you say you won't, then you say you will. You keep me hanging on, and we're not moving on.





today was okay i guess. ndp was a bore. B-O-R-E. but the songs that were sang in unision was nice i think :D and ac and rachel were so undoubtly.. cute? in that sense that they were uh. "fighting" yes.

anw was rather irritated after school but ohnvm. went to eat jx's recommendation, "my downstairs coffee shop the chicked rice". she said it was nice so we ate it and it was oh-kay la xD okay then she saw her sisters and her dog, toaster! yay!

okay and me, sylvia, sj and mich went to walk in maplewood park. it was breezy and nice and i was'nt carrying too many things so.. yeah it was relaxing i guess. and then we went to drink bubble tea! yay auntie! :DD

okay and i found many many new ways to get home :D and I LEARN MY LESSON ABOUT 62 ALREADY LOR. -.o unlike SOMEONE who has'nt learnt RELFECTIONS.

ohyes today was nice. and boring. but nice :D
isabel

isabel is injured.

isabel is injured. too many times today. and i just got detol-ed and it stings. and stinks. whichever lah. today was okay. i don't really know how to describe it, but yeah. it was good(: and so many people were D: today.

okay lets see. chinese was okay, art was nice(: cos mr liao didnt come or something so another teacher took us in she was nice :DDD okay then we had to paint the garden from a bird's eye view. so hard D: but still fun :D

okay uh. then PE was just a waste of time. those who failed had to 2.4ed. sj failed and she 2.4ed today. and guess what? she failed again. and me and sylvia were like down there cheering her but she goooondooo la dunno how to run.
and something just struck me. i think my blood is turning cold at the thought of it.


ISABEL NEEDS MORE FAITH IN EVERYTHING. like God, friends, and myself D: i just can't think of losing them again. not when i have them now. ohno.

okay break was okay, music was good and finally, after school. where i got punched, hit (in wrong places), slapped, smacked, played and SCRATCHED by sylvia chia. and it hurt and bleed. AND THEY HAD TO PUT DETOL. I HATE DETOL. its so stinging. then sylvia and jx went for table tennis and sarajane had to be alone cos my mom wanted me to go back with her D:



ah. for the love of Christ, PLEASE GIVE ME FAITH AND STRENGTH.
isabel.

eck.

im posting for the second time today. blogger has'nt forgave me. its always on my mind, bugging me to post for the last hour.

i wanted to go to livejournal. but i think i'll stick with blogger :D and for stupid people, i have xanga that i don't go to and it really sucks. im just figuring out how to delete it can. SO WILL SOMEONE HELP ME. thankyou(:

and anway, im repeating for the second time. I HATE HER. she's like a VIXEN. D: and its that simple. have you listened to Madonna's "Hey you"? yes its really nice. and for SOME shitheads ah, I DO listen to Madonna. -.o on the radio, that is.

will someone send me the phantom of the opera. im dying here.

GET READY FOR MY 3RD POST TODAY. LATER.



in sleep he sang to me, in dreams he came.

BACK TO BLOGGINGGGGGG~

HELLO BLOGGER, ONCE MORE. i DID NOT, repeat, DID NOT, abandon you :D

i just went on a vacation to visit your long lost step sister, myspace

:D so there. okay anyway im baaaaackkkkk :D we a whole lot of CRAP. and btw, school is so screwed because of her, i can barely breathe. yes its so sickening can you imagine. and today was a saaaad day D: ah. i shall LIVE ON! urgh tomorrow got chinese.

so sickening.

and i think this song is really nice(: go SEE the lyrics. then download it. its by ALL TIME FAV NEY-YO :D and stupid rihanna. eeyer ella ella eh eh eh. sound like hokien can -.o


HATE THAT I LOVE YOU
That’s how much I love you
That’s how much I need you
And I can’t stand ya
Must everything you do make me wanna smile
Can I not like it for awhile
No.. but you won’t let me

You upset me girl, then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget that I was upset
Can’t remember what you did
Well I hate it
You know exactly what to do
So that I can’t stay mad at you
For too long, that’s wrong

But I just can’t let you go
And I hate that I love you so..
And you completely know the power that you have
The only one that makes me laugh
Sad and it’s not fair how you take advantage of the fact that I
Love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain’t right

One of these days maybe your magic won’t affect me
And your kiss won’t make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you’ll probably always have a spell on me
That’s how much I love you
How much I need you

That’s how much I need you
That’s how much I love you
That’s how much I need you
And I hate that I love you so
I can’t stand how much I need you


i really do, aobglwhssegkjaiwhfo
isabel.

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BINGO. you hit me right in my chest; through my heart.


and its never easy to love you. cos' you'll never know i do.

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i found the appetite to blog again :D


today was so tiring and hectic. almost died can. school was OKAY as uaual. and then after school was torture. had CIP. yes everyone's blogging about it can. so me and pris took this girl. and she was so reluctant to read and everything. and she said PL people look downnnn on xinghua.

ah that isnt very true can D: and besides she refused to co-operate. and she pissed me off again. ever so much. the bold-ed "she" is another girl can. and then walked back to school again. was damn tired la.

and then play ball with sylvia blahblah got hit and everything AND LEARNT NEW WORDS AND "STUFF" FROM BINDHU. right sylvia? we are so smart we can beat PRISCILLA NOW :D and then went to bubble tea shop with jx n sylvia and ate my very, very, very, (to infinity and beyonddddd :D) lunch and then went home at like 7.30.



and to sum it all up,
im accidentally in love(:

ahBEL.

there's something i need to say

there's something i really need to say and let it out.


i may not understand what you really feel.
if you dont want to talk, then i'll stay quiet beside you.
its ok if you dont wish to say.
know i'm here for you every day, in every way.
maybe i'm not the one you're writing to,
but i have every right to tell you,
i'm always here for you.


and i don't seem to know why i HAVE to say this. something is bugging me. just can't tell what. and besides, i think im blogging excessively.

help me figure why i had JUST HAD to post that. and it kept bugging me for an hour or so. until i gave in to my own thoughts and it all came down to words. i got this poem from an email that one of my friends sent me. and i think it really means how i feel.

damn. i can't even decide what i want.



i'm not prepared to tell you yet.

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You irk me so.


okay today was baaaaad
D:

got back my chinese results can. and i did rather badly DD: ack. and its like i was feeling so.. heavy the whole day. and after school i was cheered up (: a little at least. so shit lah! xD

hahaha okay 'm gonna mug chinese.

byeeeee :D
isabel

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It ain't over yet. You've yet to APOLOGISE.

like i'd said, the one suffering isnt me. its YOU.


okay i know i've been on a shortttttt hiatus :D haha. did'nt exactly felt like blogging anyway. was kinda in a.. confused? mood. i guess. so yeah. but now imma blogging! :/ cos i feel like it :D

okay hmm. i'm rather pissed yet happy now. and japan SUCKS. please lah the reason why Korea even BOTHERED to do the penalities was cos' they felt sorry for the JAPANEASEEEEE i think xD AND SAUDI ROCKS. yes they do :D

and i only betted on iraq because of some nimcumput reason you threatened me with, if did'nt let you change the bet, sylvia chia.
and sarajane yes i will not ge white hair :D neverrrrrrrr.

BINDHU BINDHU BINDHU BINDHU BINDHU BINDHU BINDHU.
YAY. I SPELT IT CORRECTLY :D

okay i think im getting lame xD

byeeeeee.

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say it to my FACE.



today was another, yet another, sleepy day. was pratically YAWNING LA. tmr handbells are performing. have to wear the milkmaid costume again can. ah heck.

and i bought me self some shoes :D black heels with a simple strap at the back to tmr's performance :D yay! and i added another thing to my wishlist. GO SEEEE :D


AND THANK YOU PRISCILLA. i KNOW you are reading this :D I LOVE YOU :D hahahahaha. thanks for those 48 msgs of explaining and keeping me company while i mugged chinese :D and thanks most of all, FOR CHEERING ME UP :D your existance is appreciated xD

and thank you too! :D for sticking with me through these times of hatred. YOU MAKE ME SMILE :DDDDDDDDDDD thanks for all that you've done. touched me greatly. and maybe you're not that bad after all :D you can be my wonderwall! (:

friends are great :D
ISABEL.

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WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU. HOW COME YOU KEEP RUINING MY LIFE.


its always you, you, YOU. i get SO SICK and SO TIRED of you. seriously, i've won. no questions asked. FULL STOP. no chapter 2. and yes look its living proof that we can live without you. so there. just stfu can?

today was sleepy. i think the history classroom itself makes me sleepy without cekgu. ANDDDD today was english test. it was quite easy la. now mugging for chinese test this friday.

now time for somemore angry ramblings.

BECAUSE YOU THINK YOU'RE SO PHATETIC, PEOPLE WILL COME AND TAKE PITY ON YOU? FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE. CAN'T YOU TELL NO ON ACTUALLY CARES ABOUT YOU NOW. yes everyone thinks you SUCKK. so just go and cry in your little RICH MANSIONS and get your filthy face out of my sight.

no i can't stand you that's for sure. and i HOPE that i won't be in the same class as you. no i dont know why you keep RUINING everything. i hate you, you know. WHAT RIGHT DO YOU THINK YOU HAVE, BARGING INTO MY LIFE LIKE THAT.

do you know how much you made me feel infuriated, how much tears you made me loose out of anger, how much stabbing my heart has suffered and how much loneliness i've felt? no you don't. DO NOT EVEN TRY TO ACT SO FAKE AND INNOCENT.

i can't tolerate you much longer. ONE FINE DAY I'LL SLAP YOU UNTIL YOUR FACE HAS MY HAND PRINT THERE. you can go around saying, "ISABEL SLAPPED ME COS I DID HER WRONG. IM SORRY." and no on will take pity on you.

but this has got to end. one way or another. and i'm winning. DON'T bother fighting back.

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I'd give all i have just to get you to stay.

just yesterday, when i was thinking about how to eat her brains while she dies a day later due to exessive bleeding (with no brains), i was doing my quiet time. and this is what 1John said.

"Anyone who claimes to be in the light but hates his brother is still in the darkness."

- 1John chpt 2 : 9

and there i was, so highly amused of what i've read. and i dunno why. i should have felt guilty. but oh nevermind. the wonders of me :D okay then i read on somemore and it still talked about the darkness and light and the hate and love brother thing.



technically, she is not my brother. we are not related. maybe sisters in Christ. yeah but still. 'm trying to forgive her, priscilla.

yeah priscilla is a better christian than me! D:

can you believe it?! no i can't.

and btw, today i was searching my name on google images, and found this picture :D

'm oh so irritated :D but that is definetly NOT me. and i know i spell definetly wrongly.

Wish I could press rewind and rewrite every line to the story of me and you

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Lean on me!
When you're not strong
and I'll be your friend
I'll
help you carry on
for it won't be long
'till I'm gonna need
somebody
to lean on (:

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The footsteps that were next to me have gone their seperate ways.



i've seen enough now, to know that beautiful things, don't always stay that way.
they say, that evil comes disguised.


and they do. evil DOES come disguised. i hate you. i always will. STOP RUINING MY PROJECT GRADES AND STOP HANGING ARD MY FRIENDS. hey, its a free country. do WHATEVER you like, dear. cos' 'm learning to avoid you. learn where you stand.

if you probe too much, you might as well not come to school for i will give you HELL. so STAY AWAY FROM ME. you are a jinx. and no matter how nice i may seem, i'll crush you just like i crushed others. you vixen. don't thing you can get away so damn easily. do you know how much HATRED i've bottled up inside me?

go on. after reading this, if you still don't think its you, ASK AROUND. im sure everyone will probably say the same like, "yes, she told me she hated you" and my oh my if i burst one day, you're gonna PAY BACK for all the tears, suffering and humiliation you've caused me. yes you will. i'll make sure of that.

don't even think i WANT to forgive you. you've spoilt my mood too much, and one more blow will make you regret doing what you've done to me. I'LL TURN YOUR FRIENDS AGAINST YOU, LEAVE YOU LIKE A LONER, AND NO ONE WILL EVEN CARE. you think everyone thinks your cute, stupid and dumb.

I KNOW YOU'RE NOT. YOU'RE JUST A THUMBSUCKING LIAR. putting up that FAKE front is'nt gonna last you very long. i hate you, dear girl.

watch out.

i love youuuuuuu

Everything i do, reminds me of you.


went ps-ing with celine and hui shannnn andand we went to watch HAPPY POTTER :D on saturday la. so i met shannn and we went to serangoon mrt to meet retarded no.2, celine. and then we went to ps. booked thhe 3.00 show cos 2.30 no more seatsssss D: okay then still got time right? went arcade to play drums. or something like that. and then shan so pro! (as usual can) HAHAHAHHA and celine canot take it xD

okay then play too much late 10min. went out of arcade faster buy food. YOU KNOW WHO THE HELL I SAW? althea and alison and their.... friend. ZOMG right. hahaha. *the following series of actions are enclosed in a secret* okay then we went into the cinema. AND DUNNO WHO JUST HAD TO BOOK THE 2ND ROW FROM THE FRONT. ZOMG. so i was like tilting my head upppp laaaa D:

okay :D
i think im real blessed(:


i hope i love you all my life.

isabel

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ah. today was so.. exasperating. go look up the dictionary, idiot.
and yes im currently in a foul mood. so. yeah.

okay lets talk about the day D:

P.E was another waste of time, throwing balls here and there.. HAHA and playing against pris's group. and my group contained of people taller than 160cm. gahh i can't wait to grow one more cm T.T haha and obviously we won :D

english was okay. boringgggg public speaking again. was dying throughout can.

chinese was FUN! :D lin lao shi didnt come :DDDDDDDDDDD ahhhhh! im so delighted in relishing the memories :D but we had some chi yu competition on the white boardddd. and sylvia & i made up ways to rmbr them!
1. TO INFINITY AND BEYONDDDDD :D
2. right mountain come up ((:
3. light heart, light heart! :D
cheng yu made easyyyyyyy (:

i didnt bother to understand science. cos i can't.

live was another idiotic period where they released us late and we were so hungry tht we cld turn into canibals --

and something happened during lunch and i refuse to say what. go on. sue me.


and i changed my signaure! :D
ah isabel is the love.

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me and DOR(: taken in math before ms chew came xD

















yay! im the prettiest :D













MY FAV JUMPING SHOTTTT :D














NEVERGREEN & EVERGREEN :D

















KIM HO & MEEE :D













meet the bubble tea store "mei li de auntie"













UNGLAM PICTURES














AHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.



ohoh and did i mention? i went to PS wit t clique again today :D

isaBEL

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AHAHA. im at com lab in school with t clique again :D just that sylvia went to FRENCH.

AH FOB IS SRSLY THE LOVE. -ONE AND ONLY ROCKS. hahahaha! okay we're suppose to do on some composer? i dno xD haha just now was history and it was damn funny lah! maybe i should go back to twitting :D okay and then again maybe not.. later got NSW english --

ZOMG AH IM REACHING MY 200TH POST. okay then i'll reach many many more! and once i get t pics from niki you can see my clique! YAY! and im gna make it my blogskin :D

ISABELLLLLLL.

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okay. I SLEPT 3 HOURS STRAIGHT IN THE AFTERNOON. ahhhhh! cannot sleep tonight liao.. im still having a headache --

ah. & it all started after school, me n clique went t playgrd again la. then eat n drink alr go the red chair there spinning that one. then took some videos and pictures with sarajane who is a cam whore like me! just that im more zilian cann :D

and then i sat on the spinning chair and miss sylvia chia (who's gonna get it from me) spin me so hard until i stop that time my mind still spinning. now im still dizzy can -- AH tomorrow got chinese. yes i can die D:

and cheer up all you emo people!


how wonderful life is,
when you're in the world.


je'taime(:
ISAbel;

ARGHHHHHH.

im sorry i shouted that day okay. i felt pissed. i just did.

ah. life sucks.

the reason

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know
I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears

Thats why i need you to hear
I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over newand the reason is You
and the reason is You

ah.

The end of fear is where we begin, the moment we decide to let love in.


today sucked. with a capital S. ah.

and i think im gonna change my blogskin to something nice (:


love, isabel.

isabelisabelisabel.

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You are my SUNSHINE, my ONLY sunshine :D


ah! you are my sunshine, my only sunshine. you make me HAPPY!, when the skys are grey D: you never know yet, how much I LOVE YOU. so please DON'T TAKE, MY SUNSHINE AWAY.

hahahaha. i feel rather high today. and i felt rather happy around my friends. or at least happier abit la. it was fun today :D yes it was. i had health check.. and my backbone is straighttttttttt :D yay! haha sorry my posts been so short lately
D:

im sorry, off to mug.. AGAIN
T.T


with love,
ISABEL.

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Sometimes, all we want is for somebody to LISTEN.

Y


all the setbacks and disappointments,
we've all faced it in our lives.
guess they're all there for a reason.
i wish i knew what D:
hang in there girl, i'll always be by your side.
don't you worry, i've got your back(:


it is true isnt it. its ending. the joy, the laughter, the fun times. now its coming to another phrase, the tension, the cold wars, the heavy hearts. it has happened before. and now its time to learn from our mistake. i'll never lose you. never again.

i feel so much better now
:D
okay! im off to mug!


isabel.

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was it a bad choice, really?
i can't help but to think.

prefect

all it took was just a simple question.

"miss chan, can you sign my prefect form?"

ZOMG. yes i asked her. AND I WOULD'NT HAVE. if it wasnt for sylvia and priscilla and niki :D haha so i filled up the form.. and asked miss chan. SO SCARY. hahaha. there's no harm in trying right?(: okay now i have to do homework
D:


screw chinese!



isabel.

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ZOMG. i hate the new timetable can.
D:

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And suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and its effortless
Without a sound we lose sight of the ground
In the throw around
Never thought that you wanted to bring it down
I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves
Y


there's one thing you should know, is that i detest you. to the point that its enough to kill you. and please don't tell me you won, cos you WON'T with me around. you WON'T win until i learn to let it go.

its not over, so not.

HAHA. yes i got another of those KIND-FRIENDLY-ANG-MOH-GIANT again. as my examiner laa. and i did'nt do quite badly though. enough to pass but i don't know it its enough to get merit. D: so i went back to sch with the SOCCER BALL FOR SARAJANE :D

okay then IT WAS DAMN DAMN DAMN FUNNYYYYY. hahahaaha. :D cos sylvia was like shouting "SARAJANE I NEED TO TELL YOU SOMETING, LETS GO TOILET!" and then she was like !screaming! ZOMG! haha. then i asked sj's chinese teacher to sign, my chinese teacher to sign, and OUR FRIENDS TO SIGN(: okay and YES i treated SJ to lunch.

BEIBEI MIAN! hahahahah! for non-chinese people, its CUP NOODLES. hahahaaha. so we went to the playgrd then aft that we went to SJ's house. haha was quite fun la. but too bad we had shorttttt time so i the end i send DOR back :D

ah its a great thing.. love.
yes it is (:

-isabel.

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I'm only left with used-to-be's, and once upon a star.



Don’t think I can’t feel there’s something wrong
You’ve been the sweetest part of my life so long
I look in your eyes, there’s a distant light
And you and I know there’ll be a storm tonight
This is getting serious
Are you thinking ’bout you or us.


ahah! TOMORROW IS MY DAMNED PIANO EXAM. pray for me okay? i neeeeeeed all the bloody mental preparation now. or i can imagine what i'll be thinking while i play my pieces. like sumay would be "ISABEL. SIT UP STRAIGHT!" zomg and what if i get sickkkk tomorrow? ahha.

okay what did i do today.. after school went to playgrd again to eat "lunch" and then sarajane and sylvia zhao to their life science, leaving me and elvina to clear their bloody noodles. okay then i ran after them and sylvia started running andithrewmybundongather. HAHA. i said i threw my bandong at her. and the pink liquid spilled all ovr her :D it was an act of impluse! it was an accident! BELIEVEEEEE MEEEEEE.

hah! then we cabbed to elvina's house and i tell you, her house is almost like heaven cann? and her dog super cute la. :D and then watched death note 2, ate again (imma getting fat) and she gave my money to cab home :D was damn fun la.

okay world, im gna rest now :D miss me and PRAY for me OKAY?
byeeee! loves,

sleiba(its in jumble so it spells isabel you idiot.)

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And i love you whether its wrong or right.

Y


is there any way i can stay in your arms?
i hope i will love you all my life :D


HAHA. OKAY. the day after tmr is my piano exam. and im damn scaredddddd D: aww and im missing half a day of school :D thank goodness maths is included. YES! haha must miss me okay? and pray for me. yesyes! aha then im comingg back for SJ'S BIRTHDAYYY! :D ahaha! AND IM SO BROKE DON'T BULLY ME AND MAKE ME TREAT YOU D:

esp not swensens D: butbutbut MUST TAKE ALOTALOT OF PICTURES okay sj? and then i post on bloggggg :D yesyes!

okay what did i do today.. school was NORMAL.. nothing much to rmbr laaa. and then.. i suppose t go heartland cos i was rushing D: and sylvia was suppose to go home i think. okay then we crossed the road and saw 113. BOOOOO. so 'obvsly we missed it. and SHE HAD HER BRILLIANT IDEA for me to take 62. so i thought it stopped outside heartland so i just go. AND I SAT ON THE UPPER DECK! :DDDDD yay! hahahahahaa. my 4th time! :D okay then how wld i know the stop tht she stop on is also my stop huh.

AND I HAD TO WALK UNDER THE BLOODY HOT SUN WITH MY BLOODY HEAVY BAG WEARING THE DAMN THICK AND STUFFY UNIFORM. ahhhhh. i almost died okay.

okay now im home :D hahahahahahaahaha.



L-O-V-E
isaBELBELBELBELBEL.

isabel :D

if you're not the one

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?


Y

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
Yes we will


:D
yes i love this song. its by daniel bendingfield. i love songs that describes my emotions. as usual, not many words can describe how i feel now. GAHH. and im super angry at my mother laa. D: as usual again.

okay after school today, went to playground with usual gangg ; SJ, sylvia, michelle and today jiaxuan came too :D and yes ate and drank. it was quite fun la. and then SOME PEOPLE were so anti-social. okay then we got real high and started doing the "special friend!" thing and "ate" grass, soil, flowers AND COINS. and jiaxuan sniffed tires :D HAHA..

okay then it was getting late so SJ went home and we went to jiaxuan's house. ZOMG her dog is SUPER CUTE! TOASTER! and then my earring the diamond got stuck in my flesh again D: okay then i ALMOST got addicted to the stupid X-BOX game. yesyes and we went home :D


Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.
Every time you're near I feel like I’m in heaven, feeling high
I don’t want to let go, girl.
I just need you to know girl.


LOVESLOVESLOVE,
ISABEL.

i hate her.

Do you know how it feels like to love someone who's in a rush to throw you away.

Y


im bothered around her. i can't stand her. and you're killing me with all the jelousy, and yet i can't walk away, cos' i know i'd loose you again. she means alot to you, i can see. you mean alot to me too. and i know i mean alot to you. but is it her or is it me. make your choice.

ah yes. back to the ramblings again :D but this time things have changed. im on the winning side, YES I AM :D


okay! tatas!
isaBEL.

hah!

YOU CARED. AND IT WAS ALL THAT MATTERED.

Y

TMR'S CHURCH. yes. and i haven't done my devotions. ohdear D: ah but nevermind. i shall do them this weeeeeek. and one day passed. means, ITS ONE DAY LESS TO MY PIANO EXAM ON 6TH JUNE. which reminds me, its SJ's birthday! on 6th june!

LOVESLOVES SJ!

haha! but i have handbell practise on tht day ._. ah IMMA SORRY SARAJANE DDD: ahhhhh! and i dno what to get you for your birthday present too D: aww maaaaaan. haha and btw, tmr's church have to wear GREEN. and i don't have a single piece of green clothing in my closet. SO I BOUGHT A LIME GREEN SHIRT! yay! LOVESLOVES! haha.

okay isabel is tired and freaked out.
yes i am freaked out.
gdnites! :D


what you said, mattered to me.
it really did.
and i thank you for brightening up my life.
yes you care (:

WALK A JOG

"So pull me under your weather patterns, your cold fronts and the rain don't matter."

Y

today was the PL walk-a-jog. yes i ran with ISADOR! lovesloves! it was fun yes! ah. and im tanned. HAHA. cos i DON'T BURN. yes. GET JELOUS CUMMON! hahahaha. okay.

then aft the run we walked back 3.5 km to BK and had lunch there. gah. then went to the beach. it really reminded me of something sad. yes so i was sad. and then kim and cristy left. and me, dor, sylvia, sj, su xia, michelle and abby went to PWP. AND I SAW EVERGREEEEEEN haha!

and then we took a bus to sarajane's house. AGAIN. and we played. AGAIN. and we shot videos. AGAIN. hahaha. so fun! and we had the flu. AGAIN. and suddenly sylvia started touching everyone's necks. and they felt hot. COS WE ALL HAD THE FEVERRRR. hahahaha. but it went of la. AND I LEFT MY WALLET AND HANDPHONE WITH KIM. so i asked my daddy to pick me frm SJ's hse and go kim's hse to collect :D

the su xia had to go tution. so they went to take a cab. and then there were 5 of us. but sylvia said could squeeezeeeeeeeee. yes and the uncle said cannot. so i just came out of the cab and went back to sj's house. aww. missed the cab ride. and then yakkkedd in sj's house until daddy came and went to collect my pouch and went home!

now there's cell ._.

Y

thank you God for making this point of life so perfect.
i could just thank you over and over again.

too much to ask.

Its the first time Ive ever felt this lonely
I wish someone could cure this pain
Its funny when you think its gonna work out
til you chose weed over me, youre so lame

I thought you were cool until the point
Up until the point
You didnt call me
When you said you would
I finally figured out youre all the same
Always coming up with some kind of story

Every time I try to make you smile
Youre always feelin sorry for yourself
Every time I try to make you laugh,
You cant
Youre too tough
You think youre loveless
Is that too much that Im askin for?

I thought youd come around when I ignored you
Sorta thought youd have the decency to change
But babe, I guess you didnt take that warning
cause Im not about, to look at your face again
Cant you see that you lied to yourself?
You cant see the world through a mirror....
It wont be too late when the smoke clears
cause i, I am still here

But every time I try to make you smile
You always go on feeling sorry for yourself
Every time I try to make you laugh
Youd stand like a stone
Alone in your zone
Is that too much that Im askin for?

too much to ask by Avril. and yes this song means ALOT to me. it describes someone close.
and read the bolded italic-ed part. its true.


and its too much that im asking for.

jelously

i just found out how life is so SCREWED. yesyes thankyou. and life can be really goood at times though. ah.


"Maybe when the door gets broken down, love can break in."

someone has found its way to break my door. and bring me the happiest moments of my life :D but too much jelously kills. and sooner or later, here comes isabel with her heart, ripped into 2. and she's came that far with a broken heart, hell yeah its broken.

your love is the sweetest sin.

Post

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
Well make the great escape
We wont hear a word they say
They dont know us anyway
Watch it burnLet it die
Cos' we're finally free tonight.

ah.

i just saw a blogskin. and its really nice.. really touching.. so, yeah.

anyway, i want to thank God for giving me what i asked for :D hopefully it lasts forever. but nothing lasts forever. so i still THANK HIM. yesyes i do :D

kay. as usual, i'm gonna tell you bout today! :D aha. ah.. talked in chapel (as usual), slept in history and physics (as usual), HAD FUN DURING LUNCHH (as usual), mugged in maths (as usual), and yakedddddd :D in english (as usual). ah see. all as usual.

and then there was CIP today. suppose to sell shirts and stuff to do with animals. so i went ard bugging the teachers with sj n sylvia xDD ah. so FUN. and then so tiring aft tht. so i let the dog called ming, sit on me.

I AM ATTACHED TO MING.
yes. i am.
but im not lesbian okay. and yes ming loves me too!

cos he growled when anyone tried to carry him from my lap. so i stood up in the end and put him down, yesyes! HAHA. okay then me, sylvia, sarajane, dor, jolyn, cristy and michelle went to the playgrd. to drink bubbletea and playplay! as in not exactly play laaa. and then we went to stone and talk and talk and talk :D

yesyes i thank God for all his wonderful gifts to me :D i pray that he will make me a better christian! ah! :D

and im v.pissed at someone D: ah. but its my fault. for contradicting myself.

loves,
isabel